Bummer

Today was our get shit done day. And let me tell you, getting shit done is actually not one of my favorite things. I'm hella skilled in procrastinating and am nearly an expert at it. Anywho, we started the day with going to the DMV. Reyah was the cutest thing about the DMV. 

We got our license plates and our cars registered. In Colorado, they require two license plates - one in the front and the back. This is not ideal as I'm told that it allows you to be pulled over and/or ticketed easier. As I have inherited my grandmother's lead foot, I have a feeling this will be a very expensive state for me. 

Anywho, once we got home, we had some lunch, did some things around the house and decided we should start our search for a new day care. Gah. I forgot how not fun it is to search for day cares. Some places said they had over a year's waitlist. Boo corporate daycare. That being said, I hesitate to do in-home day care because what happens if that person gets sick or needs a vacation. So while I stressed over this, the nugget decided she needed a nap. And Nasur decided he did too. So I stressed over this and then I stress ate. I had three slices of cheese, several spoonfuls of cookie butter and maybe 4-5 peanut butter filled pretzels. Not great. 

And to top it off, my weigh-in this morning sucked and I hate failing. I'm annoyed because I gained 0.4 pounds.

Now I realize that's not a lot of weight, but that's the wrong way. I'm currently on my period, so maybe it's the fluid retention; I drank a bunch of water when I woke up; I didn't weigh in right after Reyah breastfed in the morning - I have a bunch of reasons why I think it may have been off. But I'm annoyed. I logged my calories every single day last week. And this past weekend, I took a break from logging and indulged a bit, but I didn't go overboard (which I tend to do when I let myself relax). So, yeah, I'm annoyed. I'll get back at it again tomorrow, but boo.

Tomorrow we have plans to do some day care tours, to finish up some small house things, and to put my license plates on.

Breakfast

Lunch

Blueberries while waiting for lunch

HelloFresh dinner

Nugget hamming it up at the DMV

Excuses, updates, photos, and minor steps forward and backward

I know, I know. It's been a long time since I've gotten on this dear old blog and done something. Man oh man, do I have a lot of excuses for you: impending board exams, weddings, fiancé visas, general lack of motivation, etc. Also, I've been gaining weight, so who wants to blog about that? Not me!

But, I am. I've been gaining weight this month for a few reasons. Number one is obvious though: lack of activity and good food choices. I'm on primary care this month and holy moly, it's a cush life. Not only are the hours amazing, but I basically don't move when I'm in the office. I kid you not, I wear my fitbit and am lucky if I log 3,000 steps from leaving my apartment in the morning to coming home. Pathetic. I can easily get all 10,000 steps in on an OB day. So, there's that. Number two reason: I have been stress eating like it's my job and I'm working overtime. I've also been bingeing (which is what I meant by stress eating, duh, so ignore the "also" in that sentence). Number three reason: going to the gym is so hard when overall you're feeling lazy and stressed. So, yeah. That's that.

Today, I took a few minor steps towards getting back in the swing of things. First of all, I made my personal trainer weigh me in and do measurements. I also was very frank with him that I needed him to remember to do bi-weekly weigh-ins and that if the responsibility were to remain with me that I would simply let them go by without doing anything (hence the last month). He was very receptive to that. Second of all, I got rid of most the tempting, not-so-good for me foods in my apartment (by eating them all yesterday...besides the point). Third of all, I printed out a calendar for myself to X the days I go to the gym so I can visually see my awesomeness. That's it. It's a start. I was doing so well until this month and then...blah. So, eff that. October will not be a wash. I will make October very dirty (cuz that's the opposite of a wash...?)

These two got married!

Bride's side

Bride's pretty hair!

So pretty!

Cold couple

Head table

Wish I'd eaten more of this...

This barn didn't really do the heat thing...

In my officiant/bridesmaid get-up

Doctor photo (in a bathroom - I'm classy)

Tomorrow will be a great day cuz I'm going to go to the gym and study up a storm and eat well and all that good stuff. I'm not going to do a weigh-in until Monday cuz I don't wanna so you'll have to wait to see my backwards progress ;-)

Really messed up

There are two reasons I didn't blog this weekend. The first is because I got to hang out with some of my friends from out of town this weekend (which was amazing), but the second is because I was too embarrassed/ashamed to blog.

On Friday, I ate the remaining cookies that I made on Thursday. By myself. I put them in a tupperware to take to work, but because I had to drive to a conference about a half hour away, I ended up munching on them on the way to work. And there came a point while I was eating them that I felt like gross about it, but kept going because I just wanted them all gone and obviously, eating them was the best way to do that. Stupid, I know. And then because I'd screwed up so badly already, I ordered pizza for dinner. However, I tossed more than half of it because I knew I shouldn't be eating it. In addition to that, I neglected going to the gym because well, I was all like "I fucked up. I should just wallow in it." So, that's stupid. And I almost didn't go this morning, but I reminded myself how much I neglected myself this weekend and told myself that if I don't have to be at work until 10, there's no reason not to go to the gym in the morning and just get it out of the way. And naturally, I felt awesome while I was doing my cardio (so I should have gone this weekend).

Today at work, however, was stupid. It was my first day in the ER and rather than have an attending or real ER resident there with me so that I could learn from them on how things work, I was stuck in a module all by myself. With the psych patients, who were mostly intoxicated in addition to being off all meds. It was rough. And I don't mean to imply anything about psych patients, but they're generally harder to deal with when you don't know anything and it's your first day and you're all alone.

Also, I gained weight. So, there's that. But given last week, I'm not surprised. However, today was a fasting day, so maybe I undid some of the damage...?

Today's weigh-in

Fasting breakfast

Dinner, which was over 300 calories because of the bread, but I'd already committed

From this weekend:

Two friends, two countries

Ambassador bridge connecting Canada and America over the Detroit River

Fountain on Belle Isle

Lake St. Clair

Pulled pork slider

Sunday Funday friends

Bacon fried rice

Michigan station - feature in Transformers

Pretty coffee and cake (not mine, but they were so pretty!)

Fountain in downtown Detroit

Guardian Building

Tomorrow I have plans to hit up the gym in the morning for some cardio and then do a legit strength training workout in the afternoon since I'm only in clinic in the morning tomorrow.

What do you do when you have a bad eating day? Clearly, I made mine in to a bad weekend.

Blogging, photographing, and a food curfew

So, I didn't blog much last week because I was doing all kinds of things that I shouldn't have been doing. I was slacking off food-wise by eating a lot of fast food or hospital food (mostly because I'm working in places I've never worked before and had no idea where to put my stuff including food), and at the end of long days, I just went home and collapsed. I also gained some weight due to all the ice cream and other food I ate.

To get myself back on track, I'm going to try blogging everyday again and taking pictures of all the food I'm eating. It helps keep me accountable. And because I don't want to overwhelm myself, I'm going to set those simple goals for this week: blog everyday, take pictures of all the food I'm eating, and no food after 8pm (unless that's the only time I'm able to eat dinner). And I'm going to strive to lose (and keep off) 2 pounds by next Sunday.

Here are today's photos:

1.4 pounds up from last week - next week's goal: 237.8

Breakfast before the gym

Lunch after the gym

New yogurt flavor for me

Study station

Much more chill than the desk studying

Dinner (minus all the fat on that steak)

Today's positive: wearing a new bra that made me look all kinds of perky.

Puppy love

Last night sucked. Like a lot. Let me tell you why.

This week is my spring break and I decided that I wanted to up my dancing skills, so I've been going to zumba everyday. My knees and hips decided to stage a protest last night. It took me like 4 hours to fall asleep because of the pain. I had to get up and take ibuprofen and then ice my knees for a bit. Not cool, joints. Not cool.

So this morning, rather than hitting the gym, I decided to take it easy. I want to recuperate so that next week when I start work again, I'm not too painful. That, and I need to re-evaluate my shoe choices.

This morning I also weighed in. Yikes, you guys. Yikes. I really, really, really don't want to post it, buuuuut this is a judgment-free zone. If you're in a judging mood, go ahead and navigate elsewhere.

Now, to be fair, when I first got on the scale, it said 238.0, but it was kinda blurry, so I got back on and I'd gained 0.8 pounds. I tried several more times, but 238.8 was there to stay. So, I had to settle.

But, I made myself a yummy breakfast (and finished off my bacon) and then cleaned up my apartment. I headed back home this afternoon for the first time in forever and got to spend some quality time with the puppies and the mom.

Here are today's pictures:

Breakfast

Snack/lunch since I wasn't hungry enough

Lounging with the legs up

Doc is a happy pup

Mayzie is an attention whore

Happy boy!

She likes her crate

Blurry pic with the mom

Dinner with Doc

We had fish, beans, and rice

Small dish of ice cream

Tomorrow, if the weather holds, I'm hoping to go blading. It's not looking too good. We'll see!