Treadmill and enchiladas

After leaving the hospital this morning, I stopped at Walmart to grab some things for a get together this weekend as well as to linger in the diet aisle to see if the Atkins folks ever made anything similar to the peanut butter bars I used to inhale when they were South Beach diet bars. I found a product that looked similar, but it had more calories (boo. hiss.). Nevertheless, I bought it and it was pretty tasty. I don't think I'd buy it again because it's 220 calories, but it did have 16g of protein. However, TikTok recently told me that if you multiply the protein content by 10 (so, 16 x 10 = 160, in this case) and that number is less than the caloric value, it can't be considered a high protein food. I don't know how much that actually matters to me because 16g of protein is still a lot, but who am I to question TikTok? Also, this bar was advertised as a meal replacement bar. And I just can't get behind meal replacement bars because it's not a meal. It's just not. 

After Walmart, I napped and then was hella productive. I mowed the lawn, worked out, packed food, and helped my mom with some Amazon returns. Today's workout was a Peloton Tread workout with Kirsten Ferguson. It was a 45 minute power walk and she made us go up to an 8% incline. And because I like to work harder than I need to, I add 0.5% to all the inclines we do. It's dumb. Don't follow me for workout tips. Anywho, it kicked my butt. When it came time to do the last power walk at the 8.5% incline, I reeeeeeally wanted to stop. I was just about ready to scale back on my speed and then Kirsten had to go and say, "You can do this. Hold it. You've got this. Yes, you can." And it was all motivational and stuff, so I kept doing it. And you know what? It sucked. But she was right. I could do it. I just didn't want to because it was hard. But, I did it. Because I can do hard things if I must. 

Now, as I said, that workout was hard. In addition to upping the incline a tiny bit, I also did some running when we were supposed to be power walking because again, I like to make things harder unnecessarily. It's a real gift. My Garmin, however, is trying to coax me into doing less hard things. After a workout, it tells you how long you should recover from whatever workout you just did. After this workout, it told me I'd need at least 60 hours to recover. Will I listen to my Garmin? All signs point to no, but at least now you really know how hard I worked.

Today, my mom made me enchiladas to take to work tonight. For those adoring fans of mine who are unaware (because I have never told you), my mom moved in with me last winter. She did this to help me with the kiddos and because Nasur and I decided to get a divorce. And let me tell you, Moms are God damn angels. She made the enchiladas and then packed them up for me. I don't deserve this woman.

Also, here are my photos from my long walk yesterday now that Google photos feels like working again!

This is one of my favorite parts about walking around the hospital in Loveland - the mountain views are pretty special.

Goals and Shit

Because I'm really good at consistency, here I am almost a year later, but whatever. Also, because I'm a real journaler, I'm going to write down some goals and we'll see what happens

• By Dec 31, 2024, I want my BMI to be <35 (a.k.a. just obese; a.k.a. no longer morbidly obese, a.k.a. a tiny step closer to being in onederland)
• For my height, this means I need to weigh in at <237 pounds. Which means I need to stop self sabotaging. Which also means I need to stop eating absolute trash while on call. Which also means I need to pack food. I hate packing food. Like probably on my top 10 list of things I loathe type of deal.
• From now until the end of the year, I'd like to get 10k steps a day. I'm currently on day 113 of a streak of 10k steps a day, so I can do this
• I'd like my Garmin to think I'm actually 37 by my fitness age (it currently says I'm 39 - rude. But also, I started at 44, soooo...). To do this, I need to be consistent with my higher intensity work outs
• I'd like to be able to touch my toes without stretching first. I've still go to think about how to do this

Per my calculations/google search, there are 85 days until the end of the year. So, I'm going to have to think about how I'm going to work on the ability to touch my toes and then crack down on my eating and up my exercise intensity. I know I can do this because I've literally done it before.

Weight photos tomorrow because that is the shit part of the 'Goals and Shit' my title refers to. Here are some recent-ish photos so you will be tempted to return.

Breckenridge trip

Undergrad pal reunion

Field trip photo

Field trip photo with a Mom friend

Halloween nails

 

Getting back on the wagon

Hi adoring fans! My life has been a bit of a dumpster fire for the last few months and I'm sure I'll share with you once I've processed it all, but I have been using food as a crutch to make it through. But, we're heading to Disney/Florida in 67 days and I'd like to drop 10-20 pounds by that time. How shall I do this, you ask? Well, I have a plan...ish. That's why I needed to blog - so I could get my thoughts on [internet] paper.

So, here goes nothing. My plan for this week:

1. This next week is a detox(ish) week. I'm going to work on upping my water intake. I've started to drink Diet Coke several times a week at work (they got rid of water bottles to "save the environment"), so it's been harder to drink water easily, so it's back to just water for the week
2. I will continue my detox by not having any candy/dessert/sweets. I need to wean myself off all the sugary stuff because it's my nemesis. This means no Halloween candy. I know this is extreme, but if I have one, I will have 50. I wish i were kidding, but I'm not.
3. Exercise of some sort every day this week. I'm not on call again until Saturday, so I should be able to make this work. It may be something as simple as going for a walk with the kiddos
4. Intermittent fasting. For me, this will just mean nothing to eat from dinner the one night until lunch the next day. And I have a plan for lunch each day to help myself from overeating, which is what I'm wont to do when I've been fasting.

After my detox week, I'd like to try getting back on Saxenda. It's apparently available absolutely nowhere, but I have a few pens in the fridge still, so I'm hoping that will help jump start things again. I'm also going to give myself a week or two and then track calories again. Calorie counting is a real chore, but I'm hoping it'll pay off. Tracking really helps hold me accountable. 

I'll do a weigh in on Wednesday for alliteration purposes, obviously. 

Here we go! Here are some photos to keep you coming back for more!

Lazy Day

Today was a lazy day. Unintentionally, but it happens. I was kinda bummed, to be honest because my days of freedom are coming to an end. 

We got up and did a day care tour. It was a real bummer because I was lead to believe they'd have an infant spot soon, but in reality we had to get on a waitlist that is over a year in length - the next available spot is likely in December 2020. I also called a lot of women who do in-home daycare. I don't know why, but that makes me nervous. We have more tours on Thursday, so we'll see how things go.

After our daycare tour, we headed to the store to buy some goodies to attach our new license plates. Nasur put mine on for me and he also did some car surgery to put his plates on his car. He's a bold man - I wouldn't have drilled into my own car.

Once we had all eaten lunch, Nasur had to watch soccer, so the nugget and I went and took naps in our respective bedrooms. Unfortunately, my nap lasted far longer than I anticipated so our plans to go walk about the sculpture garden were scrapped. We played a bit, had dinner, put the nugget to bed and then watched the finale of AGT. I'm not sure who I'm hoping to win, but I miss Heidi and Mel B this season - I miss the sass and honesty. I'm not sure I'll watch again.

We also got all packed up for our day trip to Boulder tomorrow. One of our family friends used to live there so she's going to take us to the hot spots and spend the day with us!

I guess I wasn't as great at taking photos today as I thought I was. Oops!

Dinner: steak bowl from HelloFresh

Our little bathing beauty

Photo update/Phupdate

For those of you who are new to the blog, welcome! I hope you don't regret stumbling upon this treasure trove of my thoughts. Because I said yesterday that I would write a blog update post, here you go. My last post was in 2017. It's been two years. I'd laugh, but residency took all the humor from my life forever. Just kidding. But it did take up all my time. And then I had a baby, so when I thought my time was already all taken, I was wrong. Here's a photographic life update of highlights from my last post in 2017 so that tomorrow we can move on to the task at hand: tackling my journey to health.

We went to Texas to see rocket ships

And to see some animals (not just fake ones)

We spent time with Detroit friends

We got our first fake Christmas tree

I took photos of my husband he hated

I met Lucy in Ethiopia

Ethiopian sun burned me bad

Spent time with Ethiopian friends

Became besties with an Ethiopian cabbie

Went to see a concert with my favorite folks

Became chief resident with this kiddo

Got pregnant

Traveled to California at like 9 weeks pregnant

Spent some time at the pool in Michigan

Saw a soccer game in Ann Arbor

Loved some Michigan summer

Watched the baby bump grow

Prepped for a baby

Went on a job search and tried to minimize the bump with smart suiting

Maternity dress for a baby shower

Had a great shower

Bump with the husband

Reyah meeting her dad in the operating room

First photo in the warmer

Had some newborn photos taken

Got to have a bilirubin blanket for two days

Learned how much I would miss sleep

Learned how cute sleeping can be

See? So cute.

Watched this nugget get older

And older

And older

Went to the zoo with some pals

Got older

Became a fan of Manchester United

Such a cute fan

Introduced some solids

Wasn't sure if solids were better than boob milk

Watched Reyah get older 

Finally took a family photo

Celebrated my first mother's day

Spent some last few weeks with these folks

Introduced the nugget to a swimming pool

Dressed up to celebrate being done with residency

Swam with the nugget some more

Graduated from residency

Reyah kept aging!

Last day with these folks

Went house hunting in Colorado

Fell in love with this kitchen

Took the nugget to the lake in Michigan

Watched her age some more

And become squirmy

Hung out with some of Nana's friends

Said goodbye to Nana and Michigan

Said hello to Colorado

Enjoyed some Colorado pools

Spent some family time exploring Colorado

And now I plan to spend some time being a bit healthier. I want to be a good role model for the nugget. But I also don't plan on cutting whole food groups out of my life. I want this to be sustainable. I want to make the folks I know proud. I want to make myself proud. And damn it, I want to weigh less!