The internet is for judging

Well, in preparation for my oral surgery, I overate to excess at the end of the week last week. I took pictures, but admittedly was too embarrassed about how much I ate to want to post anything. I didn't want to be judged for my fat assness. Because let's face it, the internet exists to judge people.

I had my bone graft/little surgery on Monday. I'm still working on recovering. He warned me the swelling would be impressive, but good God. Impressive is an understatement. He failed to warn me that I would require antibiotics every 6 hours for a whole week, so that's been super fun. I have an alarm set on my phone so I don't miss any. I also take my pain meds at that time. It's been a lot more painful than I expected. It's totally manageable with pain meds, but you can't take those forever. I just ate some soup for dinner and now the pain has spiked again because opening my mouth, even to get a spoon in, sucks a lot. I'm not sure what else to do. I suppose I could straight up drink everything, but it's a sad life to eat without texture and/or chewing. I'm already bored with the diet I'm stuck with. Here's a series of swelling photos for your entertainment.

So, anywho, I've stocked up on soup. I made mediocre pudding. I've got applesauce. I bought some mousses from Walmart. Nothing is that appealing so I opted to get some French onion soup delivered from Panera tonight. I bought the sharing portion for $25 because a bowl was $10 and I wanted to get my money's worth. Well, pretty sure I didn't get my money's worth. They said it served 4 and I must say, you've gotta really hate your guests if you think you can get 4 servings out of this. Also $25 for this? Ridiculous. 

Anyway, I've got a full OR day tomorrow, so it's off to bed early for me after I ice my fast some more.

Back pain and high hopes for tomorrow's weigh-in!

So, after I set my alarm last night, I realized I would only be getting 9 hours of sleep instead of the 10 I was hoping for. But, hey, it's better than the 6 I'll be getting tonight ;-)

Anywho, this morning was rough. I woke up with some mild low back pain and then as I stood in the shower, it steadily got worse till I couldn't lift my leg to wash it. Now I've thrown out my back before and it's not fun, but I couldn't figure out how I was going to deliver babies like that. I took some ibuprofen, bitched to the boyfriend, and then felt mostly better by the time I got to work. I'm thinking that skipping the gym on Friday (I didn't want to be all sweaty for my dinner date with friends) and skipping it on Saturday (so I could sleep) maybe wasn't the best idea. My hips and low back thank me when I go to the gym - I rarely wake up in pain. But maybe two days straight without the gym did me in. It was just a gentle reminder to my body that I need to hit the gym frequently. And, I heard you, body. Today I put in a little under an hour of cardio and I felt awesome. In fact, I felt like running after because I still felt like I had so much energy. However, I had another dinner date with a friend, so I kept myself restrained ;-)

In other news, working both weekend days is rough. I imagine by the end of the week, I will have earned the weekend to myself. I did a few deliveries, saw quite a few patients, and learned a lot. I'm so thankful that all the doctors here are so good at teaching and so willing to let an intern try their hand at things.

The other thing about working the weekends is that there are fewer people so you're spread a little more thin - a.k.a. you're busy! I love being kept busy at work. I hate having down time, so I was happy constantly running around. It also helps you forget that you're hungry. Now I'm not saying you should starve yourself, but it keeps you from eating idly or because you're bored. Tomorrow we'll see how well that paid off when I do my one week weigh-in. I'm hoping I lost half my goal of 6 pounds so I can make good progress toward getting new shoes!

And with that, I shall leave you with some photos and the hopes of a good weigh-in tomorrow!

Tonight's salmon burger

Today's breakfast

Yesterday's breakfast

Friday's lunch: 2 crab rangoons, some fish, a scoop of veggie lasagna, lots o' salad

Do you do anything to keep yourself from eating when you're not actually hungry?

Getting into the swing of things again

Today started out rough. I had such a hard time getting out of bed. Physically. Like my back hurt so much. I've never had pain like that before. I had to use the wall to walk myself to the bathroom and getting into the shower was a struggle. I just stood under the hot water, willing my muscles to calm the eff down. Eventually, they quieted themselves, but today was still a struggle.

The rest of the day was okay. It was Columbus day, so the clinic was pretty slow. I had one surgery at the end of the day and then I walked my butt over to the medical education building and worked out. It was just a cardio day - 40 minutes of the elliptical. I had the place to myself until about halfway through my workout. Two men were in the teeny room with my sweating butt for the second half of my workout. But, I'm glad I went. Does my back feel better? Not really, buuuut it's hopefully a step in the right direction!

Here is today's [phone] documentation of breakfast:

I had other photos from the day, but my phone hasn't yet uploaded them to the cloud or wherever they go, so I guess you'll have to wait until tomorrow.

Update: Here are the rest of the day's photos:

Tomorrow's goal is to do some strength training post-work. I'm pretty sure I'll be pretty dead by the end of the day because it's a surgery day, but I'm going to do it for you! Anyone want to join me on my slightly less than two week challenge? Lisa's setting some goals for herself and is going to join! We'd love the company.