Awesome first day!

Well, let me just say that I am super pumped about this month after today. Sure, there were slow points. Sure, there were the I'm-so-tired-an-explosion-in-my-pants-wouldn't-wake-me points. But, mostly, I'm really thrilled with the nurses and doctors I get to learn from. And that's enough about that - work will stay at work!

Waking up at 4:15 was rough today. I got out of bed and my left temple was pounding in protest. I took something for pain and went about the morning. I knew I needed to eat a hearty breakfast because you never know when food'll be an option in the OB world - it really can be feast or famine. Anywho, today's hearty breakfast was two egg whites + 1 egg, cantaloupe, strawberries, and a slice of banana bread I made on Saturday.

We get lunch for free at work - it's in a place affectionately known as "the trough." Do with that what you will. It's mostly decent food, but there's no such thing as fresh fruit (unless you count the overly waxed apples and oranges). There is salad that once upon a time lived in a bag somewhere and there's usually something pretty okay. Today, I heaped half my styrofoam plate high with salad/lettuce and the other half had some kind of lemon pepper fish and a BBQ chicken drumstick. Then I went hungry until a suture representative brought the interns cookies. I definitely had a few as my stomach was causing me physical pain. Then we hung out for a few more hours before my first rep dinner with people trying to sell us equipment. So, I had a pretty awesome teriyaki chicken with some veggies and a little bit of rice.

Given that we were at the dinner until 8, I opted out of the gym because my butt (and the rest of me) needs to be in bed. But, tomorrow night I have no excuse dinners, so don't worry - I'll be going!

I think that this is going to take a bit of getting used to. My bowels weren't sure what to do with all the lettuce today and turning down dessert at dinner was hard, but hey - it's a treat! And I wasn't celebrating anything. Plus, I've got some delicious fruit pizza this weekend to look forward to.

Also, thanks for all the love and support - with comments and emails! I'm going to have an easier time because of all of you! I especially liked the comments about keeping it slow and steady and not going for the all or nothing. Making positive changes should be gradual - I've learned from my own past that going balls to the walls only results in pain. When I focus on all or nothing, I usually just fail and then I really let myself spiral into a pity party that isn't pleasant for anyone.

More photos (I kinda forgot today) and a weigh-in on Monday (forgot that too!) for you to look forward to! In the mean time, have you ever had to talk yourself into being okay with a gray area or imperfection?

Pediatrics is the worst

I made it to the gym this morning before the downpours started. Given that I checked the weather channel and it said it wasn't supposed to rain until this evening, I didn't really think that'd be an issue, but turns out, the weather channel was a good 12 hours off. I don't like going to the gym if it's raining because then I have to change my shoes (at least that's what gym courtesy tells me) and it's a pain in the ass putting shoes on this stupid air cast. So, anyway: boo yeah for getting to the gym before the rain!

Last night I slept without my air cast on because I had it on a bit tight before going to bed and my foot was all tingly, so I decided to sleep without it. When I woke up this morning, I thought the swelling was down, so I left it off for a while. But I think the air cast really does help support things because walking without it was a bit trickier and I was a bit more painful this morning, but I think that might just be the natural progress of this. I don't know. It's been a while since I've sprained an ankle. But it's not bad enough that I can't elliptical. I just wish I could Zumba. So sad.

Hmm...what else? Oh, I thought I'd like a salad for lunch today with some hard boiled egg. So, I boiled the eggs as I was making my breakfast this morning and then had my salad after getting back from the gym. This was a mistake that my stomach has been making me pay for since. I don't know if it's just having the salad after the gym or having the salad, but whoa nelly, my bowels are all, "Let's explode everywhere." It's not awesome. So, no salad for a while. This isn't a huge bummer, but it kinda sucks because the salad wasn't that good and I am being forced to pay for a mediocre salad.

Yup. That's about it. I've been brushing up on pediatrics today. I hate peds. Not because I'm not a fan of children (which I'm so totally not), but because I hate congenital diseases, growth and development, and viruses. Hate, hate, hate. For some reason, I did extremely well on pediatrics exam, but man oh man, I can't wait to never do peds-related things ever again. Like ear infections? Don't care. When you can say two-word phrases? Who cares? Congenital heart defects? Unless you're turning blue, meh. TORCH infections? They're all the same to me. I know, I know. I'm a horrible person, but the thing that sucks about pediatrics is that it's not even that interesting in practice either. I know some people are all, "You have to think harder because the patient can't actually tell you what's wrong. It's exhilarating!" My response to that? "Enjoy thinking hard. I'll be over here thinking less and enjoying life more."

Photos from today:

Breakfast

Boil all the things...or you know, a few eggs

Baha...soo good at peeling

Protein smoothie even though I didn't strength train

Salad fixings

My mediocre salad (without the tomatoes)

Lunch, part 2

Afternoon snack

My salmon dinner (minus the broccoli I was going to make cuz broccoli can worsen diarrhea)

Bailey's salmon dinner

Living the life of kitty luxury

Pretzels/salt to settle my stomach

This side looks slightly better

You can kinda see the bruising that goes up to my toes

Behind my ankle is all blue...and still swollen

Today's positive: Getting to read some Harry Potter at the gym and not procrastinapping because I hate pediatrics so much. I mostly stayed on task today. Minus maybe taking a bit longer to blog than normal.